Letting go...

Letting go is not an easy thing to do....too many memories, too many of those damned happy thoughts of what might be if we held on a bit longer....
Sometimes its people who hold on to you, makin it impossible for you to let go...most of the times its ur own demons in your head.The past is a happy road we cross every now and then....the sad, uncomfy parts are embroidered over and the good parts seem even better. But nostalgia is not something u want to be your constant companion like ure dog or something...you can drown in it and choke slowly on those stupid happy thoughts. You lose track of who you are and what u really want from life...all you can think of is one god damned thing and it slowly consumes you from the inside. And you need help when that happens! Its like this fungus attack...and u arent aware of it and ull die if pple dont get to you in time...
Luckily for me ive had some very supportive pple helping me get the fungus off. But it doesnt work if you want the fungus to stay...the minute you realise that its no good waiting and hoping it washes off pretty easily. But that realisation takes a shit lot of time and oodles of patience from those around you and a lot of tissue packets are gone through.
But i think ive reached there....finally....hopefully....and its time to say goodbye and pack everything up and move on....to what, i dont know. But i do know that its hopeless to wait.
Like someone said...it was good while it lasted...smile that it happened and all that jazz....ive got a few wonderful friends out of this nasty deal. So alls cool and im ready to roll.
Its a new day and a new chicken on the road and a new sun and im a new person too.....bury the past and all that crap.
If u dont get what im talkin abt, never mind...neither do i but i feel strangely good about myself....